This one wasn’t good….
By evil e | June 27, 2009
I had to put down my buddy Bob today…very sad. He was fine a few days ago…and I noticed he was thinner…and then I spent a few days deciding whether or not he really needed a vet…Luckily (I guess) I took him in and was told he was really bad off…so much so that he needed either very expensive tests and treatment, or to be put down. And especially because the vet couldn’t be sure what was going on, I chose the latter because I didn’t see any other viable option. So, I cried a lot and said my goodbyes to him as they euthanized him; a very quick and seemingly painless procedure. As such an advocate for that in humans, I don’t see why we can’t do it quick and painless like that too. Anyway, I will miss my nutty boy terribly. Love you Bob.
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Good, a death.
By evil e | May 22, 2009
I still can’t believe the only way to legally kill yourself in this country is to be in excrutiating pain.
Cancer patient first to use Washington’s assisted suicide law
SEATTLE, Washington (CNN) — A 66-year-old woman with stage 4 pancreatic cancer became the first person to use Washington’s assisted suicide law, a nonprofit organization announced Friday.Compassion & Choices, an organization that says it advocates choice for the terminally ill, said Linda Fleming of Sequim, took her prescribed medication and died Thursday evening at home with her family, her dog and her physician.
She had been diagnosed a month ago with stage 4 pancreatic cancer and was told she was “actively dying,” Compassion & Choices said in a written statement.
“The pain became unbearable, and it was only going to get worse,” Fleming said, according to the organization.
It said Fleming had worked with the organization’s volunteers to consider her choices. “I am a very spiritual person, and it was very important to me to be conscious, clear-minded and alert at the time of my death,” she said, according to Compassion & Choices. “The powerful pain medications were making it difficult to maintain the state of mind I wanted to have at my death. And I knew I would have to increase them.”
Washington’s law was approved by about 60 percent of voters in November. A similar law in Oregon passed in 1994.
Oregon says 401 people have died under the terms of its law.
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Condoms
By evil e | May 19, 2009
Wow…in my never-ending quest for new website names, I ended up on a site that was already taken…but I was intrigued by the porn pics. And even MORE intrigued when I saw one with a guy obviously wearing a condom. Good on ya. I am not a porn girl…never cared too much for it, but when I have been molested by it while visiting various sites, I have NEVER seen a condom-clad dick…until now.
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Happy Birthday mom!
By evil e | May 19, 2009
She would have been 62 today…and probably miserable. 
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Farewell, cursive.
By evil e | May 18, 2009
OMFG…I last remember writing cursive in a note to TJ’s dad and step-mom @ last September or so. Then I just tried tonight to write a notecard to his mom with some pics inside…I cannot BELIEVE how hard of a time I had writing cursive. And I’m wondering if it’s a skill that kids nowadays will even really need to learn? It’s got to be a lost art with children texting like they do now…who writes anymore? Scary.
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Oh, alright
By evil e | April 27, 2009
I didn’t want to blog about this, but then I thought I should, since I don’t write anything down in diaries any more. But I also think I shouldn’t because, well, I am an adult, but I couldn’t help what I felt the other day. As TJ’s date for a big local fundraiser for the Moffitt Cancer Center, one of the esteemed guests was Olivia Newton-John, my childhood idol. I was very star-struck, and TJ had to hear later about what a fan of that woman I was for several years as a child, and intermittently throughout my adult life, right up to 3 weeks ago, when I was actually listening to some of her music when downloading new songs into my mp3 player. I’m sure my mother was paying attention. I called Bruce the following day to tell him, and he could appreciate it, since he remembers how nuts I was over her, starting with Grease when I was 9 and it was on HBO all the time. We even went to see sing-a-long Grease several months ago at the Tampa Theater, and I loved it…not sure if TJ had the same enthusiasm. But anyway, that is my story. I thought it was really cool to see her. And she looked magnificent as ever.
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Mom sending me off
By evil e | April 21, 2009
It seems that I have these recurring dreams with my mom in them. I think today’s was the 3rd that I can remember, and I’ve possibly had more. In them, she is alive and well, but doesn’t really talk…she just conveys her emotions to me through her facial expressions. I have other dreams where she is alive and hanging out with me, but in these particular recurring ones, I end up hugging her and crying and thanking her for coming back – from the dead, basically. There’s something about how I was so sad when she died, but I’m so happy now that she’s back and I love her, etc. In this morning’s dream, she was seeing me off at the airport. I was coming home to Florida (from where, I don’t know) and I was about to miss the flight…and I think Bruce and my stepbrothers and stepsister were there too…and we were getting a bite to eat at some restaurant.
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Just Can’t Measure
By evil e | April 1, 2009
I’ll start with the top of the sky and reach a little higher
And down to the depths of the oceans and dig a little deeper
I don’t think that’ll do…
I’ve stumbled onto something new…
I just can’t measure my love for you
I’ll head on down the equator and see how far I get
And tally up all of the land on every continent
But somehow that won’t do…
I’ve stumbled onto something crazy cool…
I just can’t measure my love for you.
Is it bigger than a bread box?
Is it taller than the highest height?
Is it wider than the arms of every other man
Who tried and failed before you got it right?
…I just can’t measure my love
I tried to stretch up to the stars above
But I just can’t measure my love….for you.
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Okay, I have done it.
By evil e | March 31, 2009
I have learned in my zillion years on this earth (otherwise known as 38 and 1/2) that you never say never.
As much as I find the items infinitely foul, I have just made my first (and hopefully last?) purchase of the most ridiculous shoes I’ve ever seen seemingly normal people wear. Crocs. I need some “non-marking” shoes for a boat trip in a week and a half…and I’ve been scouring the internet for an hour. I figured I would rather walk around in Crocs than some Sperry deck shoes which are a whole bunch of ghey. I almost decided on some purple Vans…but then I saw some interesting “deck shoe” type Crocs…plus they are none marking…so I am going to try them.
And we’ll see.
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Lyrics part 49
By evil e | March 20, 2009
I don’t really wanna talk about the pleasure
I don’t really wanna talk about my pain
Maybe it’s down to now or never
I just know I’m tired of all these games.
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