I love Elizabeth…
By evil e | November 18, 2008
The name, that is. I’ve been using it now for 17 years. While I seem to change hair colors every other month, and boyfriends the month after that, it would appear that I got it right when I made that change. When I changed my names, I really only tweaked them a little from what they were because I didn’t want to lose the essence of who I was. I just wanted to polish it up a bit.
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I love being a mom.
By evil e | November 18, 2008
I gave up my freedom a few years ago to become a mother…of two kittens from the pound. I love and spoil my babies. I am a cat lady. Tonight, I was trying to teach myself piano, and my cats wanted attention. So I eventually had to put that to bed. I have hardly quilted in years because my cats run across the floor where I have to lay ut my patterns before begging to stitch. I love them dearly; one is not very bright, but very affectionate. The other has a personality similar to Stewie (sp?) on The Family Guy and would not piss on you if you were on fire. And that’s my family.
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Blah
By evil e | November 11, 2008
So, I hate getting older…like, really hate it. I still feel that I have no purpose here. Sometimes the suicidal thoughts are only 3 to 4 a day…no I’m not ready to do it, but I am so tired. Sometimes I don’t have any thoughts of the big S for days. But when I do have them, it’s always very curious and desperate to me. I’m very miserable beneath it all.
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I love my boyfriend…
By evil e | November 11, 2008
and I have a website collection problem…
My two admittals for the day 
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Marriage, huh?
By evil e | November 3, 2008
I’ve heard the M word a few times in the last few days. I know of some friends getting married in Vegas soon, and then a separate couple sent a wedding invite today…
I am still baffled by the union. I don’t understand at what point you look around and say, “This is it. I will never meet anyone better than you. I want you to be mine forever.” Perhaps that is the pessimist (or realist) in me that believes my grass looks good, but there may be other grass out there that’s better. All aspects of my life have always been controlled by that. I don’t know how people decided they’re “happy” with their grass and they don’t want to see anymore.
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Halloween 2008
By evil e | November 2, 2008
Another one in the books…TJ’s costume was great; I was just along for the ride…had fun though…and now can’t watch the show the same way again.
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Relax…don’t do it.
By evil e | October 30, 2008
So, I just had a spontaneous few moments of relaxation…sat down on the couch and started reading a magazine I have a subscription for, but don’t read as often as I should. And the fact that I got the renewal notice made me sit down with it (take it out of the plastic) and skim through it. It’s a perfect read for an airplane or a car ride, but I just don’t find myself sitting and doing nothing very often at all. So, I confirmed that I will renew, because I found all kinds of good tidbits in there that I will take and use. I used to have several magazine subscriptions, but one day realized they were adding to my problems of feeling not good enough in any way. When each magazine gets delivered to your hous and tells you you need to do more of this, less of that, look this way, don’t look that way, it can be exhausting and not good for you. This is the first subscription I’ve had in about 2 or 3 years, and I find my anxiety with it is manageable. It’s good information…I just need to be able to process it appropriately…and only time will tell. As I said, tonight I learned some good things…so good in fact that I ripped out the pages and I’m going to look into some of the foods and things they suggested.
So, actually, I got off the point because I was going to mention how my normally too overanxious, not-a-lap-cat cat Bob decided to become my evening lap cat a few minutes into my relaxing on the couch. my ankles were crossed with my legs straight out ahead of me, and he came and sat very flat down the length of my legs. I wasn’t sure how this was going to sit with the girl cat who is normally the lap cat, and who normally is on my lap practically as I sit down. Plus, the boy is somewhat scared of her, as she is bigger and meaner. So, she came over, and I gave her my hand and scratched her chin to keep her mind off of the fact that the boy was sitting in HER spot…and after a few minutes, she seemed satisfied to go sit a few feet away. But what was funny was the boy looking at her and shifting his tail, as if to rile her up, and say “Ha ha, I’m here and you’re not!” and I thought that was very gutsy of him. Fortunately, he quieted down the tail movements and soon relaxed too like I was…and the girl was…on the floor.
So, now my reading is done, and I’m back at the computer. Think that’s all I have to say about that.
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I’m in love with a stripper…er, I mean…nester.
By evil e | October 30, 2008
I tried to talk to my friend about this today, only to have dead silence on the other end…because she too is a nester and doesn’t see my point. My beau and I also have a mutual friend who admits to being a nester and I joked, yes, just joked, that they should “sleep” together sometime and see how that works out. I had to shove my nester back over to his side of the bed this morning…as I have to do sometimes…not often. He is fine when he’s got a pillow or skin touching him on both sides, but god forbid I roll over and am away from him, because it appears that he slowly creeps his way over, like a snail, until the cold side of his body has found the heat it is searching for from my body…and I’m left with approximately 14 inches of bed. Booo on that. The problem is that I have a full size bed…and he has a queen. He still pushes me to the side of his sometimes, too…but it’s not quite as tight as my bed is.
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What’s the deal-e-o?
By evil e | October 28, 2008
I guess being busy is a good thing…so I don’t have time to do the other things I’m resigned to do when “bored”. Fortunately, some things are constructive, like riding the spinner bike a little this evening, updating spreadsheets with business information in anticipation of completing my business taxes in a few more months, sending out a few bills…
- scratch needle across record here -
but, then I have “other time”…so I decide to look up “addicted to bread” in Google to see if anyone else has my same problem…I didn’t look hard enough…just saw a few stupid entries and not the medical help I probably need. I ate an entire loaf of some delicious “homemade” bread from Publix (their own brand) in two days (about 19 hours, actually). And I ate so much of it in the sittings, that I actually didn’t feel great afterwards. It was elation as it was going down…but just kind of a stupor as the rest of the afternoon. I joke that I can’t move to another state where there is NO Publix…but seriously, I would never eat birthday cake again…think of the pounds I could lose. ‘
And then I had been discussing “my coke rewards” with my co-worker who saves shit. He said he really doesn’t do the Coke ones too much and he tried explaining something to me which I tuned out because he goes on and on sometimes (like me, I know). So, I had given him one that I had at work, but now, this eveing, I was at home and noticing I had a few of the proofs of purchase sitting around, so I went online and registered…oh, and that’s not the super ghey thing yet, I put in the numbers, which got me points that you can then use toward sweepstakes. This is where it gets ugly…like, what am I? 60? Saving Green Stamps from Publix or something? Back in the ’70’s? So, I actually entered two sweepstakes…one for an awesome tailgating trailer and another for a $500 shopping spree…one boyish thing, one girlish thing. And not just one entry…four entries in each. Craziness! But boy, oh, boy would I be happy if I won some shit!
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Git ‘er done…
By evil e | October 22, 2008
Today is the day I have decided to not only LEARN, but MEMORIZE my boyfriend’s telephone number. All I know now is it starts with a 2. Seems like it wasn’t that many years ago when we used to KNOW our friend’s phone numbers. Hell, I still remember my first phone number growing up…442-9441. But I just point to my boyfriend’s name in a cell phone and press SEND and then I am speaking with him! Magic! So…I have looked at the number, and lo and behold, I can make a word out of the last 4 digits…so I am saved! I love my mnemonic devices. More so than my demonic devices and my pneumatic dril devices.
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